In my efforts to keep the blog updated I am writing. But for the first time in ages I have little
to report. This might be a good thing, since the 25th of January 2012 my whole life has
changed and having nothing to tell means nothing is changing.
I even have routines in place!!!… Morning routines, school
drop off routines, pick up routine, home routine, dinner and bed routines. You will notice I don’t say much about the
time in-between school drop off and pick up cause I have no idea what to do
with the time.
Now just to be clear, it’s not like I don’t have anything to
do. I have things I need to get done but
… I have not had time ….. real me time, my own time, my own personal time in
almost 6 years. To be honest as I drop
the kids off at school I sit in the car with my ‘have to do’ list running
through my head and then…. Boom!!!! Gone!! I feel like a school girl who just
got the day off school and did not tell her parents.
Now we are not (yet) talking about 5 days a week – I have
Devin for two glorious days a week before the school system takes him from me
next September. So 18 hours a week I can
do ANYTHING I WANT. I have not yet got a
job, or a national insurance number. So
what do you do when you can do anything you like.
The answer … Nothing… I have done nothing but waste
time! In my efforts to use my time I
land up wasting time. Time just slips
through my fingers (which kills me to waste time or not take opportunities)
The hardest thing I have been experiencing is how to spend
time by myself again. I have had 2
little people on me like an accessory for so long I don’t know what to wear if
I can’t wear them.
Part of me needs this time. I have had quite a crazy 10
years! Lived in 4 countries, moved to 3
states, 2 kids, 3 deployments… and that’s just the headlines. I look at all I have done and part of me just
wants to stop! Stop and enjoy silence! I
am tired of figuring things out again (cause each country and state has new everything’s
to figure out)
My life cycle feels as though it has gone from the most glorious
summer I have ever seen to a winter which is stark. So in seeing that, I have decided to enjoy
the stark, enjoy the silence, and just take this time to recharge and replenish. When spring comes again I will be ready !!!
